Miranda’s mortality issues
Lin-Manuel Miranda is obsessed with death, said Michael Paterniti in GQ. In his Broadway sensation Hamilton, a doomed Alexander Hamilton raps, “I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory.” Miranda, 36, has called it the most autobiographical line he’s ever written. “I remember when I wrote that line and articulated it out loud, it felt—I felt a little naked saying it, because it bares something very true,” he says. “I was very preoccupied with [death] my entire childhood, my entire teens, you know, and it was sort of the dark side of me. I would get in a serious relationship, and I would imagine the 10 ways my date could have died on the way home. Which, to my mind at the time, was like, ‘Well, that’s realistic. Nothing’s promised.’ Which happens to be true, but you don’t have to live your life picturing every horrific scenario.” Growing up in New York City didn’t help: He’s seen knife fights break out on the subway and bicyclists run down in the street. The feeling that something horrible can happen at any time “is very wired in my bloodstream,” he says. Miranda—whose mom is a psychologist—dealt with his fixation in therapy, which helped temper, if not eliminate, it. “You talk it out until you can lay it on a table and look at it and go, ‘Well, that’s f---ing crazy,’” he says. “I don’t have to sit with it all the time. It doesn’t have to rule me.”
Collins’ complaint with McCartney
Phil Collins has a gripe with Sir Paul McCartney, said Krissi Murison in The Times (U.K.). The Genesis frontman long idolized the former Beatle—in fact, as a child actor in 1964, he did extra work on A Hard Day’s Night, the Fab Four’s movie debut. But after getting to know McCartney, 74, as an adult, Collins, 65, found him insufferably condescending. “He has this thing when he’s talking to you,” the Brit rocker explains, falling into a Liverpudlian accent, “he makes you feel ‘I know this must be hard for you, because I’m a Beatle. I’m Paul McCartney and it must be very hard for you to actually be holding a conversation with me.’” Collins has industry cred of his own; along with McCartney and Michael Jackson, he’s one of only three performers to have sold more than 100 million records both as a solo artist and as part of a band. When Collins finally met his lifelong hero at a Buckingham Palace party in 2002, Collins was carrying a first edition of Hunter Davies’ 1968 biography The Beatles. “I said, ‘Hey Paul, do you mind signing this for me?’” he remembers. “He said, ‘Oh Heather [Mills, McCartney’s then wife], our little Phil’s a bit of a Beatles fan.’ And I thought, ‘You f---, you f---.’ Never forgot it.”
How Seyfried copes with OCD
Amanda Seyfried has made peace with her mental illness, said David DeNicolo in Allure. The saucer-eyed actress, 30, suffers from obsessive-compulsive disorder, a condition she controls with the antidepressant Lexapro. “I’ve been on it since I was 19,” she says. “I don’t see the point of getting off of it. Whether it’s a placebo or not, I don’t want to risk it.” It frustrates her that mental illness is still seen as somehow less real than physical ailments. “You don’t see the mental illness: It’s not a mass, it’s not a cyst. But it’s there.” One manifestation of the OCD was that Seyfried became excessively anxious about her health, and feared she had developed a brain tumor. After an MRI came back negative, “the neurologist referred me to a psychiatrist,” Seyfried recalls. “As I get older, the compulsive thoughts and fears have diminished a lot. Knowing that a lot of my fears are not reality-based really helps.” Still, she sometimes suffers from debilitating insecurity and wonders why she has a film career. “You’re like, ‘What am I doing here?’” Seyfried says. “‘No one wants to see me. Why are you taking my picture?’ It’s stupid, it’s irrational, and it’s not all about me, but I make it about me because I’m insecure.”
■Taylor Swift testified that she was left “stunned” and “feeling violated” after her alleged sexual assault by a Denver disc jockey, according to a court deposition made public last week. Swift, 26, claims that while she was posing for photos before a concert in 2013, KYGO radio DJ David Mueller lifted her skirt and groped her. “He took his hand and put it up my dress and grabbed onto my a-- cheek, and no matter how much I scooted over it was still there,” the singer recalled in a transcript obtained by Billboard. “It was completely intentional. I remember being frantic, distressed, feeling violated in a way I had never experienced before.” Mueller, who was fired after the alleged incident, sued the superstar for causing his job loss, claiming that it was one of his superiors who actually groped her. Swift then filed a counterclaim, naming the DJ as her attacker. Her attorneys say Swift is suing Mueller to encourage other women to take action against men who assault them.
■Khloé Kardashian and Lamar Odom last week signed the required papers to finalize their divorce. Kardashian, 32, first filed to end her four-year marriage to the former NBA player in December 2013, but reconsidered after his near-fatal drug overdose at a Nevada brothel. The reality star nursed Odom, 36—who suffered kidney failure and several strokes—for weeks. But when it became clear he had resumed using drugs and alcohol, she filed papers a second time. “They’re relieved it’s over and ready to move on with their lives,” an insider tells UsWeekly.com.
■Lindsay Lohan is on the verge of bankruptcy, reports the Daily Mail (U.K.). Her London landlord claims Lohan, 30, owes six months in back rent—totaling almost $100,000—on her $4.2 million flat. If the perpetually troubled actress doesn’t pay up immediately, attorneys will petition on Nov. 8 to have her declared bankrupt. “Lindsay is an absolute mess—she has blown virtually all her money,” says a friend of her ex-fiancé, Russian tycoon Egor Tarabasov. Making matters worse, Tarabasov, 23, claims Lohan kept $30,000 worth of his jewelry and other property when they split after an allegedly violent row in July. He is demanding it back. Lohan has not commented.