Mike Tyson has been humbled by life, said Ivan Solotaroff in Details. The former boxing champ—known for his savage brutality in the ring and his destructive behavior away from it—feels real remorse for the way he’s behaved over the years, from his 1992 sexual-assault conviction to biting off a chunk of another boxer’s ear in 1997. “Objectively, I’m a pig,” says Tyson. “The first stage of my life was just a whole bunch of selfishness. I thought I was a god. Now I’m 44 and I realize my whole life is just a f---ing waste.”

Ruled by rage for most of his life, Tyson was finally broken last year when his 4-year-old daughter, Exodus, died after inadvertently becoming tangled in an exercise cord dangling from a treadmill. “If you’re not humble, life will visit humbleness upon you,” he says. “After I lost my daughter, all these people reached out and I realized: I just want to be of service to people. I need to help. I need to have something, finally, that I can offer to people in this world.” Somehow, he hopes to earn some respect. “I’m a really damaged human being and it’s still such a struggle, but I’m going to fight to the end this time. I’m just trying to be a man. I’m trying so hard.”